A couple of years or so ago, I made a trip to France. My father-in-law, along with his wife had bought a derelict property over there and whilst living there had restored it back to something like its former glory. During the process of him and his missus moving back to England, as a favour to him and an excuse for me to have a couple of days away, I'd agreed to borrow my brothers van, go over there and collect some of the stuff that he'd yet to bring back from the house, bits of furniture, tools and the like.
After a long drive, I'd arrived there mid afternoon and after grabbing something to eat I immediately helped myself to a glass of wine or three from his cellar. I spent the rest of the day loading up the van and admiring the beautiful house that he was leaving behind. It was a lovely house; typically French looking built in the early 1920's with lovely wooden shutters on the outside and big square rooms, cellar, attic, three big bedrooms and still loads of the original features such as the fire places and floor tiles in the hallway.
I'd finally got the van all loaded up by about seven o'clock and after showering I spent the rest of the evening sat on the balcony finishing off a bottle of wine and soaking up the hazy summers evening in this beautiful little French village. Watching the swallows take insects on the wing, accompanied by the fading buzzing of a thousand bees and the gentle baying of the cattle in the field at the end of the garden. Planning on an early start in the morning to make one of the afternoon ferries, I turned in for bed just after 11 o’clock, setting the alarm on my phone for 6:30 am and rolling out my sleeping bag on top of the double bed in the biggest of the three bedrooms. Tired from the wine and the driving I was away almost as soon as my head touched the pillow, sinking into a sound and deep comfortable sleep as I kicked at the zip on my sleeping bag on this sticky summer’s night. What happened next however, to this day still leaves me cold and fearful every time I turn out the light at night.
It must have been just gone 5 o’clock when I awoke and I didn’t wake gently. I suppose everybody has really vivid dreams from time to time, dreams that whilst you’re dreaming them seem utterly real and indistinguishable from reality. This was one of those dreams and it was the most horrible, chilling dream I’ve ever had.
There was screaming, a woman’s desperate screaming like it was being ripped from the pit of her stomach and shouting, men’s voices shouting but I couldn’t understand them. The screaming and shouting were all coming from the other side of a bedroom door and I was stood on the quarter landing of the stairs looking out of the window into the garden below. It was this house’s staircase, I can still remember the view from the window to this day, but the house was different, nothing specific but there was a red carpet on the stairs and the décor was different.
I remember climbing up the stairs heading towards the door but I never got to the door, the dream jumped. The next thing I knew there was crying and I’m stood inside a different bedroom to the one where the screaming was coming from before. At my feet lay the body of a young girl on a heavily blood stained rug and the crying is now all of a sudden much louder because a small blonde haired boy is cowering, terrified in a corner trying to escape me. In my dream I can see myself moving towards him, him screaming and me with a knife raised in my hand over the top of him.
Suddenly and with what was probably an audible intake of breath I jolted myself awake, but instead of just lying there for a moments calm whilst the mind tries to reassure you that what you’ve just experienced was in fact just a dream; I fell clean over in a heap on the floor. It took what must have been two or three full seconds before I knew what was happening, a few seconds when I couldn’t breathe. Like how you’d imagine it would be to drown and my head just couldn’t make any sense of what was happening, totally unable to process anything that had just happened or was even happening now. I was shivering when I finally managed to catch my breath and as I moved tentatively to pick myself up of the floor, I realized that I was no longer in the bedroom that I had gone to sleep in but was instead in the smallest of the three bedrooms at the rear of the house. I had been sleepwalking, something I have never done before or since. What I saw next however completely pushed me over the edge. As I picked myself up of the bedroom floor, there lying in the place that I had just fallen was a nine inch bread knife.
I’d had enough, I threw my clothes on and grabbed my stuff together; locked the house up, jumped in the van and I was gone. Tearing through the silent village as the sun came up, I didn’t stop till I reached the services on the toll road and started to pour coffee down my neck.
The dream was still seared into my mind, leaving me with a horrible, crushing sense of guilt. Guilt from a dream, guilt for something that I knew I hadn’t done or was even real but none the less couldn’t shake. I was also really shaken by the whole sleepwalking thing, particularly considering that I must have been all the way down stairs and back again to collect the knife. A knife for fucks sake, what if I’d tripped whilst sleep walking or worse still, god forbid, what if I’d been there with the missus and kids. This thought sent shooting icy daggers down the back of my neck. Fuck it, I just couldn’t think about it any more and I switched off, turning the radio up in the van to take my thoughts away from it. It was just one of those things, the effects of some dodgy wine and being over tired. These feelings must happen to people who sleep walk all the time, I reasoned. I put my foot down, lit a fag and started counting the kilometers down to Calais.
I arrived back at the Father-in-laws in England just after seven, after unloading the van I slumped in a chair at the kitchen table as he made me a brew. ‘Everything all right at the house?’ he piped up as he lowered himself into the chair opposite. I mulled the occurrences over in my mind, debating whether or not to say something. By now I’d managed to convince myself that it was just one of them things. An over vivid nightmare coupled with a first experience of sleepwalking, scary, unsettling, yes but supernatural no, I didn’t think so. I thought about it for another moment, it was something I needed to explain to somebody just to put my own mind at rest and get it off my chest.
‘I had a bit of a funny dream’, I said, tentatively. ‘A dream…’ his words cut me off before I could go any further. ‘Yes, a dream’, I replied now curious about his interjection.
‘This dream…’ he went on, ‘…was there screaming? Shouting?’ He paused for a moment choosing his words carefully ‘....Children?’
My pulse was now racing. ‘Yeh’ I replied again, ‘horrible screaming, and the children….’ My mouth went dry, ‘…The little girl….she was…..she was dead and the boy, the blonde boy screaming in the corner, I……I….’ I couldn’t get the words out.
‘You sleepwalked too didn’t you? With the knife?’ he went on.
My head was now spinning and the electric thud of my heart beat was echoing around my body. ‘How did you know that? How could you even know that?’
There was a long pause before he delivered the words that came tumbling and crashing out onto the table ‘Because ‘I’ve had that dream too.’
My father-in-law had had the dream at least five or six times by his reckoning, every time the screaming, the sleepwalking, the knife. Friends of theirs who’d stayed at the house had also experienced the same thing, never the women though, only the men. Finally they’d resorted to padlocking the kitchen door shut at nights, better safe than sorry. Of the four cats that they had with them in France none of them would go any where near the small bedroom at the rear, sometimes they just stood on the landing staring at the door with their backs arched and hissing before fleeing away down the stairs to sulk at the bottom of the garden.
Finally he told me of the day he met Gerrard. Whilst preparing lunch one day there had been a knock at the door. Opening the door my father-in-law had been greeted by an elderly, French, gentlemen who’d introduced himself as Gerrard.
Inviting the man inside, through Gerrards broken English and my Father-in-laws pidgin French, Gerrard had explained how he was a retired architect from Paris who owned a small holiday home in a neighboring village. He told my Father-in-law that he had heard from a friend how an Englishman had restored this house, the house of his birth. Gerrard had lived in the house up until the end of the war when he had moved away to Paris.
Upon hearing this, my Father-in-law offered to give Gerrard a tour of the house and all was well until reaching the foot of the stairs when Gerrard’s mood suddenly changed. ‘Monsieur, Je remercie vous mais le non, Je ne veux pas aller là’ - ‘Thankyou sir but no, I do not want to go there.’Thinking that Gerrard was perhaps just being polite my Father-in-law tried again. Gerrard again declined, ‘Thankyou sir but no, I have not been there since and do not want to go there ever again.’ My father-in-law now confused but with half a mind on the reoccurring nightmare and why Gerrard like the cats felt uncomfortable about something at the top of the stairs, pressed a little more ‘Mais pourquoi monsieur?’. He told of how Gerrard now shaking, almost tearful pulled a small tattered black and white photo of a family from his wallet. A Mother, Father, a small girl and two little blonde haired boys sat in between them. Fighting back the anger in his voice Gerrard replied, ‘En raison du mal des Allemands’ – ‘Because of the evil of the Germans.’
With that and a shake of his walking stick he bade my Father-in-law farewell and was gone.
To this day I don’t know what happened in that house with either the Germans or the nightmares and the sleepwalking. I don’t think I’ll ever know or perhaps ever want to know. As it stands it’s just nightmares and coincidence, I prefer it that way.
Interestingly about eighteen months ago the house was finally sold to a retired couple from Devon. About three months ago however the house was placed back on the market, ‘Due to a family bereavement’ the advert said. Makes you wonder doesn’t it.